Once again alone and hurt (Poem)

Beating music,
my heart in sync
with the base
of the song.

I feel the rush,
of living, loving the moment.
My heart beating,
to the melody of the song.

Suddenly, cheers,
and tears of joy,
jumping up and down.
Together again.

I should be happy,
I should be proud,
but all I can feel,
is a bit shaky and the hard ground.

No, empty,
hits it better.
Will this ever stop?
How many more?

I know, it´s been some time,
I´ve helped you,
I hid my feelings,
so I wouldn´t hurt you.

Now, for what did I do it?
It happened.
It´s love.
I´m helpless.

My mood is gone,
I fake a smile.
You notice it,
you go away.

You leave me there,
all by myself,
suppressing tears,
once again,
healing a broken heart.