this is a short, okay long letter to all of you loyal souls out there reading my blog. First of all I want to thank you. Thank you for reading. For commenting. For liking. For following. We hit 300! OMG! I can not believe it. When I really launched this blog back in Summer last year I had 30 followers and I was so proud and happy about that. I was on top of myself when I got 70 followers and more and more comments from you lovely people. Now I have over 300 people reading my blog and it´s just insane. Thank you, thank you, thank you so so much. For all your love, your support and your kind words. I think you all know how much I love words and especially how much power words have, so you can imagine what your words mean to me.
My posts have been all over the place lately. A lot of poems, two summary´s of my week, one update on my Yoga progress, two travel posts… that´s just me. I´m always all over the place;-) but what´s a little less like me is the way my poems have been like, you might have noticed them getting a little more depressing. I´ve been going through A LOT lately. A lot of problems from two years back up till now came back in such a short amount of time, it just all overwhelmed me. Writing, Yoga, Sport and you guys, you who write me here in the comments or/and on Instagram, you´ve had a huge impact on keeping me over water. Writing has been the expression of my soul, Yoga and sport have helped me digest and handle my feelings and the happenings and your words have kept me from going insane. Thank you, once more.
My Dad called me to ask if I wanted to talk. He read my blog and said my posts are getting more depressing. I did talk to him. But I also got to thinking, this blog is called “1617 Sunshine Ave”. This is supposed to be a place of happiness, where the sun shines…I´m a mostly happy person, to be honest I am a pretty positive person. When things get stressful and ugly I keep my sane with Sport and I work too much. Yep I admit it, that´s how I handle the situation. I´m a human being. I´m not perfect. I am a perfectionist though, trying hard not to be one. But when things get out of hand, when I start to lose control, I work more and do more sport. Needless to say it leads to nothing good. Well if I decrease my level of working a bit and I try to relax more it usually get´s better, but this time things got totally out of hand. I got sick the third time this year, my body telling me it´s had more than enough. Now I´m back on my feet getting hit hard again.
But you know what, this time I won´t let everything take me down. I am strong. Stronger than a lot of people think I am. I´ve had to face challenges, mean words,.. short: ugly things the world has to offer. Just like everybody else. We all have things that try to weigh us down. This time I´m not going to let them. I´m going to stand right up where I fell and I´m going to shine. I´m going to leave the negativity behind me, forgive those who did harm to my soul and move on with my journey. I´m here to tell you that you can do the same. You´re strong on your own, no doubt. But we´re stronger together! We´re all in this. This blog is getting the positivity back which it has lacked in the past weeks, plus it´s getting back more. I want this to be a place on the internet where you can share your story, (if you want),find open ears and people who listen. A place where you can find some positivity and encourgagemet when you need some and also all those times where you can just get higher!
Dear people of the internet, reading my blog. Thank you for bearing with me, thank you for reading and following me. You are amazing. Yes, you!
Let´s rock this! I´m getting back on my feet and I´m going strong. So are you!
PS: Wow, this was personnal… very personnal…kinda scary to post…
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